[ODEN] Harsh weather

Daisy sat trembling, her hand shaking as it held the weapon to her own head, tears flowed down her face as she contemplated whether to do it or not, if there was an afterlife then maybe she could join Nat and the rest of her family in it, if there isn't one then at least she was away from the suffering and sadness that life brought her. She was about to pull the trigger when Evan spoke, she opened her eyes but didn't look around, she just stared blankly forwards. When Evan said the first part of what he what he was saying Daisy closed her eyes again, that didn't make her feel any better, it made her feel worse but when he said the next part she opened them again. He was right, Nat wanted her to be strong, killing herself would show weakness and that would be against Nat's wishes. Daisy's hand shook more violently until she finally dropped her weapon to the floor. She tucked her knees up to her chest and bowed her head into them, she continued to silently cry next to Nat's body, trying to get rid of all the sadness and sorrow.

Daisy continued crying for a few minutes and listened as Evan spoke, she agreed, they needed to bury the body, they couldn't leave her here and they couldn't take her with them. Daisy continued crying into her knees, her back heaving up and down with every sob for a few minutes, eventually, a few minutes after Evan spoke she looked up and faced Evan, she pointed to the ground indicating that she wanted to bury her here. Daisy then turned back to face Natasha's corpse and sunk her head into her knees, Daisy continued crying for a while until she eventually fell asleep into her own knees.

When he had finished digging the hole, he turned and found Orion coming out of the tent. Figuring he knew what had happened, he walked into the tent. Seeing Daisy asleep, he walked over to her and shook her shoulder slightly, waking her up. "Ok. I've dug the grave." He said. "Do you want to carry her or shall I?" Evan asked Daisy.

Daisy awoke and sat up, she looked around and saw Nat was still there but Orion was gone, Daisy saw what had awoken her, it was Evan, after hearing what Evan said Daisy looked at Nat's body, she couldn't possibly carry her taller cousin by herself, she began to silently cry again as she stood up and grabbed Nat's shoulders, she then motioned with her head for Evan to pick up Nat's feet.

Orion continued to sob unable to stop. He looked up at Evan and tried to stop sobbing to speak but all he could say was "Its my fault" this was through sobs unable to control himself. He wanted to get up as he shouldn't be the one sad, he barely knew Nat unlike poor Daisy but this was his fault his team member was dead. All he was trying to do was to finish this stupid mission and get back to Beacon, but he couldn't speak well enough to say this to Evan.

Daisy began to cry heavier when she saw Nat's body in the grave, when Evan gave control of burying her Daisy took the shovel from him and began to shovel earth into the hole, crying as she did it. When she had finished there was a pile of fresh earth in the middle of the clearing where she had buried Nat. Tears had streamed down Daisy's face and now what makeup she had on was now running down her cheek, when Daisy had finished she dropped to shovel by her side and stuck Sulacco in the ground where the head of the grave was. Daisy stood, staring at the grave with weeping eyes before she collapsed into the snow and closed her eyes, she just wanted to sleep, she didn't feel the icy snow beneath her or the chill of the snowflakes as they gently landed on her face, only sorrow. Eventually Daisy was asleep in the snow next to her cousin's grave.

Orion got up his eyes raw from crying,"Ok Evan... just for Daisy she helped me get settled so i feel endepted to her that is the only reason I'm going back not for you just Daisy" he said this turning his face from Evan so he could not see the slow tears dripping down his chin he walked back down the hill hoping Daisy would be ok still they needed to work as a team more than ever.

Daisy awoke the next morning and tried to figure out how she got into the tent, she looked around to see Evan asleep also in the tent and decided that he probably carried her into the tent. She sat up and wiped her eyes, from tiredness and to wipe dried makeup from her eyes, when she was properly awake she stood up and walked outside, she saw it was barely morning and Orion was sat near the tent, watching, guarding. Daisy wondered if he had been there to entire night, she walked over and sat next to him, she signed to him: "How long have you been here?" Daisy then looked over to Nat's grave and felt sadness again, not enough to make her cry but she slumped her head on Orion's shoulder and thought to herself. Why me? What did I ever do to the world that it hates me so bad? She then continued to watch Nat's grave from Orion's shoulder.

Orion turned to Daisy and said "I've been guarding all night it has thankfully been quite but still" Then Evan came out the tent and told him to sleep. Orion thought to himself "I know Evan's the leader but he could be nicer in this obviosly distressing time for Daisy" then said out load "No don't worry I'm fine without sleep"

Daisy listened to Evan's question but didn't know how to answer, how could she show her sorrow and pain? She drew Spartan and pointed it at her head before lowering it again to show that she felt suicidal. When Evan began to speak of family Daisy began to think of her own family and started to feel worse, memories of her real sibling, Tom, raced across her mind, then memories of that night came back, memories of the things that made her mute for 5 years. She began to cry again, she tucked her knees up to her chin and hugged them, rocking back and fourth, shaking her head, trying to clear the memories, she reached into her pocket and retrieved the blood stained teddy bear keyring she always kept on her, as she rocked she stared at it, clutching it tightly in her palm, bringing back happier memories. Eventually her rocking began to slow and at last came to a stop. Her tears had also stopped, she rested her head on Evan's shoulder and began to watch over Nat again.

Daisy took the bowl from Evan's hand, she looked at the beans for a while before placing the bowl on the floor and pushing it away from her, she silently sighed and rested her head on her knees. She didn't feel like eating, her whole family had just been wiped out, first there was her parents and siblings, killed by burglars, then there was Nat, killed by beowulves, she was alone in the world, she didn't care about eating, she didn't feel or notice the hunger as her stomach rumbled, all she felt was pain and misery.

Daisy listened to Evan's question and didn't react for a while, she eventually looked down at the bear and stared at it for a while, she finally replied, she pulled out her scroll and typed on it "This is from when I was a kid, before my family was killed, it's the only thing I have left from them, it brings back happy memories of when they were alive, but now Nat's dead too, my only surviving family member." Daisy cried as she typed, when she finally turned it around to let Evan read, she turned it back around when she was sure he had read it all and began to cry again, she sobbed into her hands for a while but eventually looked at the bear again and stopped, she began watching Nat's grave again.